|April 28th, 2012 at my brothers wedding reception.|
I truly don't think you can understand how much your mother loves you until you have children of your own. I had heard that same thing over and over throughout my life and it didn't mean alot to me.
Until I became a mommy. How true it is. The amount of love I instantly had for my kids made me realize how much my own mother loves me. And in that moment (and so many times since) I felt so guilty. Guilty for not understanding at times (while a teenager and in my early 20's especially) that everything she did was to keep me safe and protect me.
I am so sorry. Sorry that I was a rude dumb teenager. Sorry that I thought you were just trying to make my life miserable with a curfew. I'm sorry that I didn't tell you I loved you everyday. I'm sorry that I picked fights with you and kept things from you. I'm sorry I crashed your car. I'm sorry I quit piano lessons. I'm sorry I ditched swim practice on more occasions that I want to remember. I'm sorry I didn't appreciate you and all that you did for me, my friends, and our family.
Thank you for always loving me. Even when you didn't 'approve' of things I was doing. Thank you for being 'The coolest teacher at school'. Thank you for always taking an interest in my friends and I. Thank you for not allowing me to go certain 'friends' houses. And always making sure you knew where I was and who I was with. Thank you for ALWAYS waiting up for me to get home. I know now that you were just making sure I was okay. Thank you for making sure I didn't dress like a slut. Thank you for teaching me how to cook and clean. Thank you for waking me up early on Saturdays (
When I grow up I want to be like YOU! One day I hope to create a home as warm as you did. To treat others the way you do. To love the way you do. To cook, sew, clean, and shop as good as you. And to be the type of mother you are/were to me, to my own kids.
Thank you for teaching me not by your words but by your example. Thank you for loving me. Thank you for being such a wonderful grandmother to Jaxon and Chloe. Thank you for being an example to them and loving them so much. Thank you for your continued support and understanding. Thank you for loving my husband and genuinely supporting him and taking an interest in every aspect of our family. I truly feel blessed to have you not just as my mother but as my best friend.
Happy Mothers Day to all you mothers out there. It truly is the best/hardest/most rewarding job there is.